Dec 27, 2015

strength

By julie"anne at 7:09 PM
strong
strôNG/
adjective
  1. 1.
    having the power to move heavy weights or perform other physically demanding tasks.

  2. 2.
    able to withstand great force or pressure.




I pray for your strength to face anything that comes to you. You are indeed very strong. And I know you are going to be stronger.

Dec 11, 2014

#returnRania

By julie"anne at 10:11 AM
I get too emitional when it comes to babies and mothers. If a baby cries for mommy's milk you don't shout "dah dua tahun, nak susu apa?" You know you are just being mean and denying her right. What kind of a father are you? Separating two loving hearts, who need each other. What kind of monster are you?

You are just an abuser. You are not a man. You are selfish and greedy and a monster. 

Oh, my heart aches. And heartless grandparents. You are just the worst!

Dec 8, 2014

Sabotaging own happiness

By julie"anne at 11:21 AM
It's like there's a group of cells, that puts thoughts in my head everytime I am happy. It's like, you seem to be too happy. Why are you too happy? Woahhh, there's something need to be done. Here think about those times when you hurt the most. Oh, what about those times when your hubby did that to you?

It's been long since we fought. We are so happy. But these cells are very dominant. Since my confinement, I decided to put my feelings aside and focus on my baby. 6 months later, the baby grows big and healthy and I have nothing else to worry about, then come those damn cells again, trying to rip off my happiness. 

Why do I always do this to myself? I have everything I ever want and need. My husband and son, family, great family and in-laws. 

I just want to be happy. Why is that so hard, when it is actually the easiest thing to do?

Nov 18, 2014

Penat

By julie"anne at 5:46 PM
Siapa tak penat, cuba tidurkan anak tak tidur-tidur.
Bila kita baru nak bangun masak, baru dia bagi cue nak tidur. 
Tidurkan la dia dulu. 
Kemudian cepat-cepat lari ke dapur nak masak, hubby balik makan tengahhari. 
Lama pulak nak masaknya ayam ni. 
Perut dah lapar dek menyusukan anak.
Periksa oven tiba-tiba "clash".
Mangkuk pecah. 
Lauk dah rosak.
Husband dah balik. 
Baby dah bangun semula. 

Nangis. Nangis je la yang boleh. 

Terpaksa husband keluar. 
Belikan nasi ayam. 

Memang penat jadi surirumah.
Penat dan bosan kadang-kadang. 
Tak ada kawan nak luahkan perasaan. 
Tak ada teman borak.

Tapi semua tu hilang bila tengok si comel. 

Tapi bila dah sentiasa duduk di rumah, mana lah nak jaga sangat penampilan. 
Entah suka tak husband tengok kau serabai.
Di ofis ramai yang wangi-wangi mekap tebal-tebal. 

Ah, jangan kau dengar kata syaitan. 
Kerjanya memang menyesatkan.

Nov 17, 2014

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By julie"anne at 1:36 AM
Ya Allah,
Ikhlaskan hatiku, ya Allah.

Sesungguhnya aku tak dapat mengharapkan keadilan dari makhlukMu
Kerana Kau lah yang maha adil lagi bijaksana
Yang maha mengetahui segala bentuk hikmah disebalik ketentuanMu

Ya Allah,
Jadikanlah hatiku redha dengan segala ujianMu

Ikhlaskan hatiku, ya Allah
Ikhlaskan hatiku, ya Allah
Ikhlaskan hatiku, ya Allah

Amiin.
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