Dec 3, 2012

Istanbul Aku Datang

By julie"anne at 4:45 PM
There is a part of me, in my heart, that is still longing for Germany.

This whole moving back thing doesn't really make me happy. Yes, when Mr. Yu decided to go back home, I knew I still wanted to live there. I wasn't ready for this big change, still am.

'Istanbul Aku Datang' is indeed a good movie. But I didn't cry because it was that good. I cried because I missed Germany so much that I couldn't contain myself. Even small things that even remotely related to it can really break my heart.

No, I am not making things up. Not even wanting to be mengada-ngada. Germany holds so many bitter sweet memories.

Germany to us is like Istanbul to Dian and Harris. It is something meaningful.

Nov 22, 2012

Of jealousy

By julie"anne at 12:09 AM
Today I listened to a couple's conversation. The wife asked for the hubby's permission to get home every evening with her guy friend. The hubby of course rejected it.

In my situation, Mr. Yu suggested me to take the same ride as my guy colleague home.

Well, jealousy is not his best feature, which actually he's lacking. Or maybe he just doesn't care that much.

Nov 16, 2012

Of moving back home.

By julie"anne at 9:20 AM
I am now officially residing in Malaysia, for good. Found a small flat of three bedrooms and a kitchen. Can't wait to organise my new home.

Alhamdulillah, I have met very good people. Some are not, though. But most of them are gifts to me. I have the best set of friends. And I will never forget their help.

Thank you, Allah for making my moving back home easy for me. 

Nov 5, 2012


By julie"anne at 10:59 AM

of frustration

By julie"anne at 10:30 AM
Don't know what is more frustrating. The fact that I still don't have my dream job in Malaysia, or knowing that I would still have chances in Germany, if I stayed longer.

Should I have waited a bit longer, I would be having job interviews in Germany now. Or even working. And I could really use the 'trust me, I am an engineer' phrase accurately.

This is the biggest frustration in my life, yet so far. Sigh~~

Nov 1, 2012


By julie"anne at 5:10 PM

If "Happy Ever After" did exist,
I would still be holding you like this

of being a post-grad student

By julie"anne at 9:06 AM
Well, how do I say this?
The thing is, I am just too lazy to find a job.

But I don't really enjoy being a student again. Especially when I still don't earn enough even after years of painful undergrad life.

I do not think this is going to work.

No, I am not lazy. I am just upset because I have declined two very promising posts for this thing and yet my position in that university is not confirmed yet. Even after 3 months.

If I wanted to stay poor, I would have just stayed in Nürnberg. At least I love it there.

Oh, btw Mr. Yu asks me to mention his name because he loves me so much (yeah yeah) haha


Oct 29, 2012

Of missing everything.

By julie"anne at 11:15 PM
Rindu pada rumah kecil itu.
Rindu pada sejuknya salju.
Rindu pada dingin lembut bayu.


Mungkin tak sama dengan tanah sendiri.
Mungkin bukan asal kelahiran empunya diri.
Tapi rindu bersarang di hati.
Tapi hati bukan di sini.

Oct 28, 2012

Of sacrifice and battle

By julie"anne at 5:51 PM
Cinta memerlukan pengorbanan?

Just saw 'Untuk 3 Hari'

Had he not asked the girl to sacrifice, they would have been happy together.

Had he been braver enough, their love would have won.

Had he been stronger enough, THEY would have won.

Love does need sacrifice. But that comes along with some braveness and strength to win the battle. Sacrifice alone will get you nowhere.

Because love is a battlefield.

Oct 17, 2012

Of Nothing and Everything.

By julie"anne at 5:49 PM
A month.

I still can't believe I am now living here.

I have this feeling, that I am going to take a return flight to Nürnberg, like I always did before.

To be honest I am missing Nürnberg so much.

Big shopping malls and tall buildings don't really satisfy me.

Nürnberg is nothing compared to Kuala Lumpur but to me it is everything.

Oct 16, 2012

Of killing and dying.

By julie"anne at 8:32 AM
Andai dia takdirku yaAllah, Kau kurniakanlah sabar dalam diriku. Buangkanlah amarah dalam hatiku. Jauhkanlah syaitan yang berbisik.

Andai bukan, ajarkanlah aku untuk redha. Kerana cinta yang sejati itu milikMu.

Things that are happening around me make me miss Germany sooo much. I miss our life there. I miss how I can be so carefree. Without this heavy feeling I am carrying around right now. I don't even know what it is.

This distance is really killing 'us'. Part of me is dying inside.

Sep 19, 2012

Mission accomplished

By julie"anne at 8:01 AM
Mission accomplished:

Sep 17, 2012


By julie"anne at 8:56 PM
Where cars are on the LEFT side of the road.

Where you get laughed at for clearing up the table at the restaurants.

Where songs like 'Bawa ku pergi' get banned, while 'blow my whistle' is on the radio all the time. Sigh.

But at the same time, it is where my heart is.

si adik yang manja.

si abang yang manjakan adik.

Aug 28, 2012

Graduation Goggles

By julie"anne at 12:24 PM

I have spent my entire adulthood here. You know how I hated it here. The first year I had been begging mama to let me go home. I felt weird, left out and of course, lonely. Everything was so strange and different. My friends were not around, and  the person who used to and should be a friend was just busy 'online dating'. I was too depressed and sad.

Until the day I knew him. Fate brought us together and I was afraid less. He took me in to their poker circle. Had sleep-overs at their places every weekend, lived within the cards and chips. Sounds bad ass? lol! Those were the moments I cherished.

He took me out for some icecream, and then to lunch, then to dinner and to everywhere he went. Without we even realising it, we grew attached to each other and fell in love. It was the best thing ever happened to me. I was not afraid anymore.

Time went by fast. Almost all the circle members left for good. We were braver than ever. We took chances, made small and big decisions together and had each other's back. There were fights and misunderstandings, though. We made it through.

Studying was never easy. But then I grew accustomed to the system. It didn't make it any less difficult. But at least it made it less stressful. There were times when I cried when it was too much to take, and there were some happy, good times too. I was blessed.

Now, I have fallen in love with this place. Either that, or I am now experiencing the Graduation Goggles. But it is time for me to go. It was a rather last minute decision. But it's a decision to be made. I thank god for this opportunity; to be there, where I have been, to feel, what I have felt, to see, what I have seen, to have, what I have had, to lose, what I have lost and, to meet those, who I have met.

Danke, auf Wiedersehen!

a long, fun day.

By julie"anne at 11:06 AM
Urm, yesterday was Mr. Yu's birthday. Since there's an offer at Starbucks, we planned to have breakfast there. Unluckily, the offer lasted only till noon, which is a bit too early for both of us. haha.

We ended up having some cake at another bakery and went to the Asian Shop to get some instant noodles. I at first wanted to cook for him, but I was too lazy.

at 5 we went out once again and met Pesa. After taking a walk, we went to Norlis' and ordered some pizza. At that time Norlis had cooked nasi Bukhari and kuah dal for her dinner. Wah, langkah kanan!

At 11 pm, we went home and started packing. It's 5 am and I am not done yet! Ugh!

This was the second time we celebrated his birthday together. These past years, we had been celebrating it seperately, since one of us would be back home on his birthday. I regret a bit that I didn't have the chance to bake a cake (or actually I was just lazy). Nevertheless we had a blast on his birthday. That's all, that matters, right?

Aug 27, 2012

Happy birthday, sayang!

By julie"anne at 4:52 PM

Aug 25, 2012

Favourite corner of the room

By julie"anne at 11:36 AM

I laid the Ikea bookshelves on their sides so they don't stand tall. I arrange them so they are alligned with the bed. This actually helps making the room appear bigger. And the flower lamps add the ooooohh effect.


Aug 24, 2012

Draw something

By julie"anne at 1:11 AM
With adik Ita. She is a bright girl. Funny and bright.

She currently uses kakak's account.

Tak sabar rasanya nak balik main iPad sama-sama. Haha

Aug 23, 2012


By julie"anne at 7:48 AM

Aug 14, 2012

This has to stop, you look stupid.

By julie"anne at 5:30 AM

Mr. Yu's pet peeve


Aug 10, 2012

My (food) diary - ramadhan week 2 & 3

By julie"anne at 12:17 AM

This is my diary. I have recorded every event in it.

Aug 2, 2012


By julie"anne at 2:23 AM
Dalam kenangan.

Jul 31, 2012

Day 7 - Leaving Nenzing for Munich

By julie"anne at 12:00 AM

Around 9 o'clock in the morning we started the journey to Munich. It was lightly raining.

We went straight to DRM (Deutsche Reisemobil) Vermietung. The organisers were busy returning the Motorhomes. They let us lead the group back to the city by taxi.

After checking in, I took LCC to look around Munich Railway station.

The only Chinese participant. Lim Chiu Chen. Thanks for the coconut choc frap, Chen!

At the hotel lobby, the only hotspot in the hotel, where you can use their 'free' internet. This cute guy is Aziz. Each day he grew attached to Mr. Yu. Manjeeee.

At first we wanted to take them to the famous Rasoi, but everyone was tired and hungry that they went to the first restaurant they saw. Then as german speakers, Mr. Yu and I acted as the waiter and waitress to take their orders at some turkish Restaurant. I helped a lot. ^-^ 

Jul 30, 2012

Alpencamp, Nenzing, Österreich

By julie"anne at 9:10 PM
One of the tourists had taken some photos of the campsite. Here are some of them.


Subhanallah. And the design of the campsite itself is interesting too, compared to such in Milan. 

Photos are unedited by Lim Chiu Chen.
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